I am writing this post in response to Ali and Jenn's blogs. They were writing about small groups. I feel like I have something to say also but I feel super distracted since I'm at work. Yet I just hate getting on the computer while at home! Anyways, I understand what you're feeling Jenn and Ali.
I feel like relationships get harder when you're married. Maybe I just haven't quite figured out how to mesh the two yet.... Or maybe it's just our random schedules that confuse me. I love spending time with my husband and since I don't see him as often as most wives see their husbands, I struggle with giving my nights to other people- unless he's gone at class or unless he's hangin' out with other guys. I do believe it's important in marraige relationships to spend time with one another and to grow together, rather than always being apart and growing apart from each other. If only there was more time in one week- In one lifetime! Time flies by so fast- so fast that I feel the need to organize it, keep track of it, moniter it. This often stresses me out because I realize relationships are so important. How ON EARTH do I (can I) make time for my Lord and Savior, time for my husband, time for brothers and sisters in Chirst, AND time for ministry to those who most desparately need it- those who don't know Christ???? Oh God, how do you expect me to figure all this out? And when I do invest time to all of the above, I am so stretched that I cannot give my all to any of the above!
Anyways, I am getting off track a little so I'll get back on :) Splitting our small group was a dissappointing idea to me as well, yet at the same time I realized the need for others to come in- so my feelings were very mixed... I agree that long-lasting relationships are ideal. Long-lasting relationships where we can encourage one another in Christ and grow older together, share life with one another, be there for one another through the good and the bad. This is why I also struggled with the idea of splitting. On the other hand, I remembered how Jason and I were when we first came to Xpedition. I remember how we so desparately wanted/needed to be united with an intentional group of brothers and sisters. I remembered how excited we were to become a part of a regularly meeting small group. And I want others to have that option as well. So... while I 100% agree with your blog, Jenn, I have super mixed feelings about the whole ordeal! I must say that it will be frustrating if our group keeps splitting and splitting and splitting. Jason's parents had the same issue in their Bible Study group. They were being pressured to split to make room for other people. While they did consider it, they chose, in the end, not to split and to stay a close knit cell group. And they have remained this way for over 15 years.
So... to sum up everything, I don't know what to think! I just believe that as long as we are all seeking the Lord together, God will show us what's best for us and what's best from an eternal perspective. The ultimate goal is to encourage one another and to build each other up in Christ. Lord, we ask You to show us what this looks like...
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