4/25/2012

Oh Heavenly Father, Your command seems so astronomical, "Go and make disciples of all the nations."  Sometimes I feel like I'm trying but is it amounting to much?  Other times I fear I'm not trying enough.  I've known so many who have happily proclaimed a faith in You, but a few years down the road they've turned away completely.  I know others who proclaim Your name but their lives reflect the world more than Your Word.  My sphere of influence seems so minimal.  And my sinful nature and flesh lacks what it takes to be all that I desire for You.  It breaks my heart to see so many hurting youth.  And to see them chasing down worldly pleasures above Your heart.  It angers me to see satan's hold on their lives and the deception they've bought into.  You've asked me to pray, and I won't stop.  But I need Your strength and patience.  I think back to my younger years and of how patient You were with me.  I failed again and again and again, convinced You were angry at me for my sin.  Convinced I couldn't "make the cut."  But You were patient and throughout the years and every circumstance You pursued me until You revealed Your love to me in 2003 and opened wide my eyes to Your blood shed on the cross for my wickedness.  I found freedom in You for the first time.  You were so patient with me though I didn't deserve it.  And in the same way you're patient with everyone.  Keep transforming hearts, Father, and give me the wisdom to see that even when things aren't on my time frame, You're drawing people to Yourself.  Help me to be faithful in prayer and in what I can do for You.  I love You.